Sunday, March 20, 2011

OOOO Memories!

Like I do in my spare time I was searching blog ideas in the pursuit of finding my niche! I stumbled upon such a simple idea. -Revisit things that you have already written and update and edit them! So, I went through old blogs I had written years ago on the social dinosaur MySpace. I think once a week I will go down memory lane. Here goes...

She is up before the alarm goes off. She has already been reliving the night before in her head. She knows that this is a rare feeling to have, one of total helplessness. In her head she knows that this will not happen often.

BEEP BEEP BEEP 'Shut up' she thinks. She didn't want to move. He starts to stir. BEEP BEEP BEEP. 'Time slow down I don't want him to get up!'  She likes the feeling of his arms around her.

He reaches over top of her to hit the alarm. He gives her a light kiss on the forehead. He knows that face, she doesn't want to move and he knows it. 'God I wish I didn't have to work. I don't want to leave I wonder if she knows that.' He hops out of bed and heads for the showers.

She's still burried under the covers trying to think of what to say. 'Wow, I hate this early moring crap. Why can't he have a normal job?' She thinks. She hides under the cover as he comes out of the bathroom he tries not to let too much light into the room. He's dressed before she knows it, as he sits on the side of the bed she hops up and puts her legs around and slowly rubs his back. She starts to kiss his back as he turns to get a kiss on his lips. They both know this is the last time they will see each for a week or more but they choose this. They choose each other.   

As I was rereading/rewriting this I remember the night I wrote this. A guy I was dating at the time had told me something that meant many changes. As I laid  beside him in bed he asked if I would wait for him.  I questioned this what was I waiting for? He then told me he was going to be delpolyed soon. I had to think about it and in the end I told him that it would be unfair for both of us. We hadn't been dating but more then a month I couldn't in my right mind expect us to work out that long.  

'Lovely Bones'

I'm in the middle of another book but 'Lovely Bones'  I've read before just wanted to keep the blog updated! :)

Lovely Bones is an amazing book of how far a fathers love can  transcends space and time. It defies all reason! At times throughout this book people think he is crazy to be searching for a killer and the body of his dead daughter. This book takes many twist and turns. At times it is a little bit unbelievable at points as far as a ghost controlling another persons body. As in Loose Girl the imagery is amazing!

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Guns Save Lives?!?

I had the pleasure of going to a gun show in my area. I went with my Dad, Cpl. and Cpl. M. I was sad I still haven't met Cpl M's wife!(ooo well I'll met her sooner or later!) The fun started off early when we saw this.....

If you could read it- the guns he's holding and one in bag are for sale. 
  • M70-$574.99
  • M10-$649.99
  • Mark V-$1224.99
  • Ticket to gun show-$10
Now how much could he have earned for spending just $10? Thats right a lot. I now know spend a little earn more!

I wish I would have thought of this marketing ploy! We saw many signs like this throughout the gun show but couldn't take pictures inside. This show had many awesome guns and more! I found a pink and chrome .38 special stub nose I would love to have and pink stalk and barrel that I could put on a thing that looks like a M4. I have to ask Cpl what it is later but right now he's busy watching dumb people doing stupid stuff on the TV.(LOL)

My Dad was like a ninja so most the time I spent with Cpl and Cpl M. I was given a sticker by one of the creepy old men there. The sticker said 'Guns Save Lives'. Is this true? I think its a half truth. I heard this earlier 'Its not the invention that is inherently evil its the people who use it.'. I love gun rights but I think the laws should be tighten just a little as far as known criminals and people with known mental issues not being able to obtain guns. I know it wont stop the crime but nor will getting rid of them all together. Boss Man, Cpl and I have had many heated debates with Boss Mans employ TJ. TJ says that guns should be outlawed to stop crime, Boss Man said it was the people not the guns to blame. I said was there no crimes before guns? No, thats right crime started before the invention of guns.

In the other room at the gun show Cpl saw his love from TV Amy from Lizard Lick Towing! He stayed for a good few minutes staring at her! This is where I recall saying 'OH you can look at her all you wont on TV. Not like your ever going to have the chance to meet her in person!'. Hum, now I know not to say that again! So, needless to say he enjoyed that room. All and all I had fun with everyone there and hope to go again soon to get that pink .38 special stub nose with pink holster! 

Friday, March 18, 2011

Game Night!

Last night while over at Cpl E and ooORah wife's house we played a few games!

First game we played was Lair's Dice. This game is hard to get at first but well worth it! It's dice version of BullShit. You start off with 5 dice per player in a cup.  Like so...

(ooOrah wife took this picture! Thanks!)
Our game is played with four player. Which means 20 dice on the table to begin. Shake the cup bump dice onto table with cup covering them(you don't want other players seeing your dice.). You bet against each others dice. The bet must increase by 1 or more each time. Example first call was one two. Next bet could be two two's or one three. Doesn't matter what number increases as long as one number does. Bets go around till some calls out 'lair'. 

When 'lair' is called out by someone everyone picks up their cups and count the number of dice that pertain to the bet. If the bet was 8 six's, you count all the six's. The bet can be spot on or higher then the first number to win. For example if their were 7 six's the person who bet 8 six's would lose a die. On the flip side of that if there was  8 six's or more the person who said 'lair' would lose a die. The game continues till one person has dice/die left.

This is a simple game you can make your own. ooOrah wife has awesome pirates dice but I want pretty pink ones! So, have fun make it you're own!

He Will Always Be a Cpl!

Alright, this goes out to all the Marines significant others. It doesn't matter if you're a fiancé(like me) or a wife.  Every Marine knows many truths to be true but this one particular truth will stay with them for as long as they live!-

            'Once a Marine, ALWAYS a Marine!'

I am a very proud of my fiancé  a Combat Veteran of the Marine Corp! He is in the IRR(Individual Ready Reserve). He can still 'play' Marine. I call it this because in the IRR he can chose to go and do drills and a deployment, if he wanted to! He reminds me of this quite often. He could still pick up rank if he worked at it. As much as a would like to see his sexy little ass in cammies he says 'I've served my Corps if it needs me it will call me back.'. Which I hope it wont come calling that means a 7 months of hardship. I've been through no more then three months without him before. 

The reason I explained all of that is I DO NOT like it when people don't treat him as such. I've personally heard it from a few and each time I utter the same phrase and leave it at that...

                  'Once a Marine, ALWAYS a Marine!'

I heard a 'ex' Army cat say Cpl was an 'ex' Marine and not a Cpl. I don't know Army lingo but in the Marine culture(which it is a culture in and of its self) we call these so called 'ex' Marines former or prior Marines!(Just so you know NEVER EVER call a prior Marine an 'ex' Marine! He will unleash a hell you have never seen! This is something I have seen Cpl do. ) I even before I met an active duty Marine I had a GySgt as a boss I called him GySgt when I first clocked in each day. He really appreciated such a simple greeting. He said it was nice someone would address as the rank he worked hard to earn.   

Like most wives and fiancé I deal with the after math of a deployment. One newly married Marine wife was going on about the tremors her husband had experienced a few nights before. Seeing as I sleep next to a combat vet. I tried to relate to her and give rather funny stories of Cpl's tremors. My story fell upon deaf ears. The reasoning behind this was in her mind Cpl was out of the Marines and he no longer had tremors. I find this funny if only these things worked like that. It would help me out a a great deal. I hate seeing him in pain...not as physical pain but the emotional pain the deployment caused him. If her rational was the truth he would no longer have these at times scary and painful tremors.  

I only wish that some people will understand that as a Marine if you earn your rank you keep it when you are discharged.  

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

'Loose Girl' Doesn't Mean Whore!

'For everyone who was that girl.
For everyone who knew that girl.
For everyone who wondered who that girl was.' (

I found this quote in the publishers comments about the book 'Loose Girl'. If you knew that 'girl' you most likely thought she was a whore. If you wounder who that 'girl' was you didn't understand her. If you were that girl you knew what it felt like to be SO addicted to mens attention, not the sex but the feeling of being wanted and loved. To actually feel as if for even for a brief moment you were loved. For some of the 'broken toys', like me, you just want to feel the nice soft tender touch of a man. Something that wont scar you again, for life. 

(Most people who are sexually assaulted go one of two ways. They either close themselves up so they can't be hurt or wont be judged or the are overly sexual and crave the opposite sex attention. And most blame their-selves. I did for a while then came to realization that is was the sick twisted persons fault not mine!)

I knew a few girls that where that 'girl' but unlike most third party person viewers looking in it looked bad like that girl didn't know her self worth. Well, I'm here to say I was that 'girl' and like in the book I had friends that looked at me as if I was a whore. Then I found some that were like me. 

'Loose Girl: A Memoir of Promiscuity' made me reflect on the choices I've made and the circumstances that drew me to make said choices. I'm not pretending to by a Saint or by any means want to kid myself and buy a white wedding dress. My friends that were 'virgins' didn't understand why I loved and craved  mens attention. I didn't like the little boys at my school so I out sourced and thank God I did! I saw so many girls reputations ruined because boys loved to brag. I didn't want that for myself so I kept my personal life out of school but my virgin friend knew all.(You know who you are.) Thankfully, she kept it under wraps.(Thanks JK).

I wasn't so lucky when I got out though I didn't lead a double life anymore one where in school I was a A and B student that was a good girl and outside of that the women that would try and find guys. So, again I out sourced. This time to another state. I went on many wonderful first dates. Without fail each time they wouldn't call the next day. It ate at me I was trying to figure out what I was doing wrong I was to the cool games hot chick. So, after much thought I figured it out I wasn't giving myself up to them. Is that what men wanted? Sex thats it? I tried it a few time to let go and give it to them in hopes of keeping them as a boyfriend. IT DIDN'T WORK!

With this plan they would call back and want more but thats all they wanted. It became so bad at one point one of these boys dropped me and married his pregnant girlfriend. Which I DID NOT know he had. He kept me as a friend just so he could have me 'entertain' buddies of his. Me being the smart girl that I am I caught on the first night. Each buddy of his that I hung out with I would give this warning-"I WILL not sleep with you tonight. I want to see if it will turn into something more then a one night stand. And we will tell LCpl JD that we had the most wild and rough sex ever.' It worked I found great guy friends this way and one night I even found my fiancée while he was still in the Marines.(I miss his ass in cammies it was hot!)

I would recommended this book to everyone! It just might give you a different view on 'that girl'. For some of its readers it might drum up unwanted memories but could help them deal with circumstances that were thrown upon them. Her story sometime run through a gambit of emotions. She has away to make you, either for the first time or again, feel the longing, desperation and the stress of uncertainty. In the end she gives it a kind of good feeling. She over came what plagued her in youth to become a successful woman she is today.

P.S. I did have a few relationships but none lasted more then 11 months. Till Cpl we are going on two years in July!


Thats it! Thats it! Thats it I can't blog about 'Flea Market Style' anymore! I tried my hand at it but its not me. Well, not yet I don't think I need more money to shop. So, off to find something I can do for lets cross 'FMS' off my list.....
                                 12. Flea Market shopping
There done! I think I am going to try...

                                 2. Reading
I am in the middle of Loose Girl. Its scary makes me think of my youth and things I shouldn't have done. I will write a review of it later. Then I will try my hand at read my way through my sister books. No, I will not be reviewing 'The Twilight Saga'. I read the books and they were great but I don't like the movies all that much. With any luck I can finish Loose Girl tonight.

Decorating with 'Flea Market Style'

Well, this is the practicalities of 'FMS' its a cheap and cute way to decorate.

In this picture I have some personal items mixed with flea market finds! Time to play 'I spy'! First thing I love is the bed sheet folded as a flag. It's one of my favoirte memories with Cpl! So, I don't bore you(if I haven't done so already) here's the short version-One night in the first months of dating Cpl and I folded it together. It has stayed in that shape for two years now!(I know I would barf too! LOL)

If you didn't see this in the picture above pay attention! Just kidding! This is a flea market find. It was I think $2.50. I don't know if it works as a lamp, I'm to scared to try! Although, it might not be a good score of light its PINK!!!!!!!!(for those of you that don't know me PINK is my favorite color!)

Okay, Okay I know what your thinking 'A train ticket?!?!?!' Well, I paid a lot of money for that train ride why wouldn't I keep the ticket as a keepsake? It's sometimes as simple as a train/movie ticket that means a a lot to you. I think its a cute personal touch personally! The hair bow is something I made. It reminds me of my sister trying her best to teach me how to craft.(If you like the bow and would like one made leave a comment and I will give my sister the information.)

This WAS snow globe before Cpl tried his hand at cleaning and moving our room around without adult supervision. I got a teary Cpl on the phone crying, 'I broke it! You're going to hurt me!'.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Flea Market Stuff

A few things I got at the flea market.(Not the cross stitch bears Cici Mia made that for me!) I love the Avon perfume bottle and the 'Darn It' sock thing. My sister told me what it was for, I forgot! :)  The pink vase was just awesome! All together everything I got in this picture was less then $5! Hum, I think I'm going to like 'Flea Market Style!'

Flea Market Style!

Well, one of my topics was 'Flea Market Shopping'. I found a magazine in the bathroom literacy pile. It got me thinking about the topic. I did not know that flea market finds where a style all its own.

This revelation takes me back to last summer when Cpl and I just got a room that we could decorate. Cici Mia was ecstatic at the thought of 'yardsale-ing' and going to flea markets. We found great stuff but I never knew that this was so popular. Cpl even redid a lamp Cici Mia and I bought. I even found some Avon perfume dolls that made me cry at the memory of our old farm. When my sister and I entering ourselves by playing with them(we didn't have doll houses at that point). I couldn't help but to think of awesome late 90's songs played on my sisters state of cd player.

Collectable 1970's Avon Bottles Pictures, Images and Photos
(not the bottles I got but basic idea till I can get pictures of mine)

Maybe there is another side to flea market shopping. An emotional side where you never know what you are going to find it just might take you back to great memories! I wonder if there are people that are out there just hopping to find such items. I wonder if I will ever find something that emotionally attached to again? So, my goal for the summer to go to a few and see if I can match that first experience!

 As I said before it has its own magazine and I just found 'Flea Market Styles' blog.( I like some of the items they have posted. I don't know if I will get that into the projects but we will see!

Finding my Niche

My sister gave me a idea to get more readers. Find a niche but how does one find their niche. Its not given to them in an E-mail. So, I had the brain child of writing about my adventure while trying to find my 'Blogging Niche'.

I have no idea if I should do it by week or what kind of time line for trying new things. I think I'm going to play it by ear for now.

Ideas so far-

  1. Cooking(I hate to cook so this one might be last)
  2. Reading
  3. Video gaming
  4. Old school cartoons
  5. Old movies
  6. Musicals
  7. Diets 
  8. Wedding stuff(this will most likely be mixed in seeing as my sister and my weddings are so close)
  9. Crafting 
  10. Cross stitching 
  11. Board games
  12. Flee Market shopping
  13. Photography
  14. Trashy Gossip(LMFAO about Snooki!)
  15. Painting by numbers!
As I read the list to my sister the kids are playing. All of a sudden I hear BooBoo saying "I'm crafting for a show! Doodle you'll like my show!" LOL!

Well, as far as what to do first I need help!?!?! Any suggestion?

Monday, March 14, 2011

Let the Insanity Begin

The time rolled around for Cpl to go to class with hugs and kisses he's on his way. I stay home for a little and finish cleaning up. Then I'm on my way to my sister singing to an old chorus CD my teacher had made so we could learn songs. As I drive I find it funny that I have put SO much into the speakers and radio head for me just to blast Broadway musicals! Yes, thats me driving a little too fast and singing way too loud!

I get to my sisters and the kids are running all over Boo Boo's giving me attitude but I just ignore it. Stinky is playing games when he should be doing homework. I'm told by Boss Man(sisters soon to be husband) that Stinky is to clean up and do homework. Great here comes mean Lala. My sister loves to make me the evil one but it gets results, sometimes. I get the word I'm watching all four kids tonight...FML. 'Let the insanity begin!'

The insanity starts before they even leave Boo Boo is yelling at me because 'Daddy didn't let her watch a game'. Somehow this is my fault. Stinky is trying to pass off three sentences as a short story as I'm trying to help him Doodle comes running by crying that he doesn't want to go to bed(day light saving time enough said). Well, after much yelling and 5 counts Doodle and Boo Boo got in bed.

Great now just Stinky and Baby its going to be easy all I have to do is put a new butt on Baby and get Stinky to write a paper. NOT easy Baby eats his carrot nastyness too fast and I don't want to feed him more Cici Mia might want to top him off when she gets home. So, he's crying and I can't stop him Stinky is over at the table yelling at Baby and me and just pissed that he doesn't understand the homework. I had enough with Stinky's yelling and him cutting me off when I'm trying to help him.
"STINK (ADD MIDDLE AND LAST NAME HERE) I'VE HAD ENOUGH. YOU WILL LISTEN TO ME AND STOP TALKING I'M TRYING TO HELP YOU!" Now if you HAVE ever heard me yell you know that its loud and sometimes scary. Tonight was just the same. Stinky starts crying that I scared him and I told him that I was sorry and that he had to listen because I was trying to help him. Well, after I got him settled Baby started up again. I go in the playroom where it is kind of dark and start rocking him. That didn't work so I started to sign, great now the years in chorus can pay off. They didn't they just messed me up I couldn't think of any baby lullaby's. So, I start singing Silent Night in German. It worked! He started to clam down at which point Stinky started up again! Now, he's just yelling I can't take two crying babies so I send Stinky to bed and tell him he'll have to finish the rest of the work later in the week. 
Thank God I got just one crying baby to worry about and Silent Night is still working slowly I make my way to his room and lay him down.
YAY no kids! BUT wait! I go in the boys room to get Stinky so we can work a little more on the paper and Doodle is playing with a doll house on the floor. I put him in bed then check on BooBoo. I head towards her room and see no nothing on her bed. 'OH CRAP where did she go?' I ask myself.
"Now, where in the world are you BooBoo??" I call out.
And in a sweet little voice she answers "Taking a POOP Lala!" Oh, I'm guessing I should have known!

Code Names...

Everyone needs code names!!! 

My sister-Cici Mia(kindly given to her by our little sister)
My sisters kids- her oldest-Wow I can't think of one for him get back to that one later.
                       -her only daughter-Boo Boo
                       -Middle boy- Doodle bug
                       -Baby boy-Baby
My Mom- She will be known by many names Smoke Stacks, Wicked Witch and of course Mommy.
My step Dad- Limp Gimp
My Dad- Just Dad
My step Mom-SanPac(LOL Just remembering my Dad at Boo Boo's birthday party making a plate for SanPac when I asked who he was making it for Cpl said 'His pet!' HAHAHA SanPac is a pet of sorts!)

Last but not lease my fiancée- Cpl(he will always be Cpl A to me!)

Like my sister all others will be addressed by initials.

Well, of to my sisters to babysit!

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Lets Get This Started!

Well, this is the first time in a long time I have put my thought into writing. I miss doing it on MySpace it gave me a place to put what I wanted to tell everyone but couldn't for fear of being judged. Well, this is a fresh start!

My name is Sarah, I have two sisters and one brother. My parents are for another blog.. I have a fiancée.((all names will be changed as my sister did in her blog) No I'm not a copy cat, although she may say that I am!) Well, back to my fiancée we are getting married in the early fall a little less then a month after my older sister. We are an odd couple but we do love each other. As I type this he's watching an awful 80's movie on NetFlix. He came over to read what I was typing said 'Aw thats cute' before losing interest but thats what I like about him he doesn't hover.

 Now I only talk to one of my siblings it hurts not being able to talk to the other two but I can't take back what the adults in my life have done as much as I wish I could. As far as sisters go I think I could never do better then my Cici Mia! She supports me and believes in me. At times I may be at odds with her but I can always count on her.(and I can see it when she reads this she will smile and go 'aw your Lala loves me!' to what ever kid happens to be with her) At times she may push me to do things I rather not do but it helps me grow as an adult. Like the time she begged me to be BooBoo's cheer leading coach. It was something I will never do again but I learned a lot from it! Thanks Cici Mia!